I thought my husband's tattoo was just a random woman's tattoo until I met her in person. From the first day I met my husband, I noticed that he had a tattoo of a woman's face on his shoulder. It wasn't a name. It was not a symbol. It was not a vague artistic design that could mean anything. It was a complete portrait. A young woman with sweet eyes, dark hair and an almost sad expression, as if someone had captured her in the middle of a secret. At first, I didn't ask. We had j… Voir plus

 

 For 12 years, I stared at the woman's face tattooed on my husband's shoulder and wondered why he never told me who she was. Then, one afternoon, I bumped into her by chance inside a bakery, and the fear in her eyes made me realize I'd been asking the wrong question all along.

From the first day I met Ryan, I noticed the tattoo. It wasn't a name, or a rose, or one of those abstract symbols that people said had a deep meaning.

It was the face of a woman, a detailed portrait. She looked young, perhaps a little over twenty, with dark hair, thoughtful eyes, and a sadness in her expression that never seemed to disappear.

At first, I didn't say anything. We had just started dating, and I wanted to be the kind of girlfriend who wasn't threatened by things that existed before she came along.

Every time Ryan wore a tank top, there she was. Every time we went to the beach, she was there. Every time he turned over in bed, there she was.

Observing.

Ultimately, curiosity won.

"Who is she?"

Ryan barely glanced at the tattoo. "Nobody."

Not enough to start an argument, but enough to stay in my mind.

Several years later, when we got engaged, I brought it up again. This time she laughed.

"There's no great story."

"And who is she?"

"My colleague was learning realistic tattoos. He downloaded a random picture from the internet and needed someone to practice on."

"It's the truth."

Even so, I knew he was lying. I just had no idea why.

After we got married, the tattoo bothered me more and more. It wasn't because I suspected Ryan was cheating on me. It was because people don't permanently put a stranger's face on their bodies.

Not like that. Not with that level of detail.
Finally, I asked him to cover it up. I wasn't asking him to take it off. I just wanted something else. A compass. A mountain range. A dragon. Anything.

At first he agreed. Then months passed. The tattoo artist moved on. Money became scarce. Work got busy. There was always another excuse.

In the end, I stopped asking. Not because I didn't care anymore, but because I was exhausted. Exhausted from losing the same argument over and over. Exhausted from feeling like I was competing with a woman whose name I didn't even know.

So I taught myself to ignore her.
Or at least that's what I thought.

Until last week.

I was waiting in line at a bakery when the woman in front of me turned slightly. My stomach sank. I knew that face. Not from school, not from work, not from anywhere in my life.

For a moment, I honestly thought my mind was playing tricks on me. Then she turned a little more. The same eyes. The same lips. Even the small mole near her jaw. She's older now, but undeniably her.

My hands started to tremble. I must have stared at her for almost a minute. Finally, before I lost my nerve, I took a step forward.

"Excuse me."

He turned around.

"This is going to sound weird, but do you know anyone named Ryan?"

All the color drained from her face. She took a small step back. I read her expression. Her face had turned red, not from confusion or surprise.

Fear.

My heart was pounding. "Are you okay?" I asked.

For several long seconds, she said nothing. Then she looked past me toward the bakery entrance, as if checking if anyone was watching her.

When he finally answered, his voice was barely audible.

I nodded. Somehow, her expression worsened even more. The fear remained, but now another emotion appeared.

Sadness.